Wednesday Wishlist? life | whenflowersfall | work

Hi flowers, 

Today's post would usually be my Wednesday wishlist, but I've been a busy bee today doing actual work. Work that I'm not doing for myself. Work that has so far involved me taking 300 photos. I'm not going to go into it too much, but I'm hoping it's all going to work out well and I'll probably share with you once it's all done. 

Because of this, the one thing I want today, is sleep; lots of sleep. My brain hurts. 

If you'd like a little sneak peek into what I've been doing, feel free to go over and watch today's vlog when it's posted over on our daily vlog channel tomorrow. 

I hope you are all having a good week.

 I feel like I've not stopped and with Liam being away this week, I think I'm going a little stir crazy, with only a dog and two cats to talk to. 

Thank goodness for Skype. 

✌

Juggling is fun... catchup | daily | dailyjones | ideas | life | moving | personal | videos | vlogging | work | writing

Hi my lovelies!

Since I last posted, I haven't really had much time to myself and I feel like I'm now juggling so many things. 

I've begun to pack up our stuff and maybe a little silly of me, but I have also started daily vlogging. 

I wanted to be able to keep you all updated through this whole move process, but it's just dawned on me that we may be without the internet for a bit when we actually head down south. Doh! So I guess the vlogs will have to hiatus until will get sorted. Fingers crossed we can somehow make sure it gets turned on as we get there. 

Anywhoooo, I just wanted to check in and share the first couple of vlogs. 

Hopefully this weekend, I can actually sit down and get some proper posts written up. I'm going to try and write and film like a mad person, so there won't be a huge gap in posting whilst we move. If there is anything you would like to see, either on here, or over on YT, please let me know in the comments below. Also, if you've seen any new tags floating about, let me know about those too. I think they'll be great fillers for whilst I'm not about.

Apart from that and more box packing, all I have to look forward to is cleaning like a crazy person, freshly painting walls and laying some replacement carpet before we go. Fun. 

I hope you are all well!

Sam

xoxo

Days of fashion dreaming... alternative | clothes | dreaming | fashion | job | money | overhaul | platform | revamp | shoes | wardrobe | when flowers fall | whenflowersfall | work

If you follow me on Twitter, I would like to apologise. Recently I've been blathering on about my lack of decent clothes and my dire wardrobe. 

Along with a lot of things, fashion is something that suffered in my bad months. I dressed dowdy and plain and I had no confidence to pull off the clothes I love. Luckily, I am finally getting my own style back, my hair has been dyed pink, rather than the plain brunette I dyed it months ago, I'm wearing a lot more brighter colours and I'm finally wanting to give my wardrobe a total revamp!

Unfortunately, where I live jobs are very sparse, and even though I'm now in the right frame of mind to get back to work, the job opportunities just aren't there. I take a little comfort in knowing that I'm not alone and a friend of mine is also struggling to find work. 

I wanted to create this post to show you guys what my wardrobe would be filled with if I didn't have the financial issues holding me back! 

I'm very much loving print leggings, loose tank tops and absolutely anything with studs or spikes. Shoe wise, even though I am 5ft 11", I am craving anything with a platform, and again the addition of spikes will only make me want a shoe even more. 

Being a slightly 'curvier' girl, I feel like I have to have a lot of confidence to wear such fashion, and I honestly feel like I finally have that confidence. 

The moment I manage to get some work, I am saving my pennies and going on a mad wardrobe overhaul. This could in all honesty take months, but I am promising you guys now that once I am happy with what I wear, I will be posting many more fashion posts and OOTD's. If I were to do it right now, you'd just see me as the dowdy person I was six months ago. 

Good Days and Bad Days.... anxiety | attacks | depression | followers | jobs | panic | panic attacks | personal | thank you | when flowers fall | whenflowersfall | work

Hi Lovelies,
  So this is rather a personal post today, usually I would post my Friday Fit Day, but due to our scales being out of batteries and me knowing full well I have not lost a single thing this week, I decided against it.
  As most of you will already know, I went to a job interview on Monday and although I felt it went incredibly well, I'm now feeling my anxiety playing hell with the thoughts of 'what if I actually get this job?' The interview itself was a huge challenge for me. Sunday evening was a roller-coaster of emotions and I very nearly sacked it in there and then, but I pushed myself and got myself through it, which if I'm entirely honest, I wouldn't have been able to do two months ago. The panic attacks would have made my mind up for me, but this week I managed to control them. Unfortunately, since Wednesday I've been feeling like I've back tracked to two months ago. I am proud of myself for getting through the interview, but now I'm stressing about the actual doing the job bit, and I don't even know if I've got it yet. I know it sounds awful and I feel sick saying it, but my mind just tells me that I don't even want to work. The pressure that I feel to do well in everything is too much, and although Liam says he really wouldn't mind if I felt more comfortable not working for a little while longer, I know we struggle a lot for money and could really do with the added income.
   As the title of this posts suggests, I really do have good days and bad days, Monday I was on cloud nine, happy and feeling like my life was finally getting past my panic attacks and depression, yesterday though, I woke up at nine and lay in bed all day! Literally like a little hermit with no energy and no motivation, I just lay there watching old pretty little liars episodes and avoiding phone calls and text messages as much as I could.
   I really want to get past this, so as hard as it is, I'm going to keep fighting it. This may mean a few changes in the way I blog, but I promise I would give up on it. Blogging is the one thing that takes me away from everything and I honestly wish I had started it sooner.
   I know I've rambled a lot about a whole load of nothing in this post, but I really want to thank everyone who follows me, whether it be on here, twitter, youtube or facebook. I really appreciate every one of you guys and you make doing what I love so much easier. You also help cheer me up on those not so good days. So thank you so so much! Also if any of you ever want to shoot me an email or tweet, please do so, even if it's just to say hi. It's those little smiles that make days better. :)