Monday Make-up And A Little Catch Up.

Well, howdy doo my little beauties. 

I'm so sorry for the lack of posts and videos etc. Especially when I kept saying that it would be back to normal. 

I've spent a lot of time since turning 23 feeling pretty pants if I'm honest. Without trying to sound dramatic, I had a bit of a mini breakdown a few days ago. I was very much struggling with keeping my mood high, and after visiting family in the past couple of weeks, I felt I knew what I was really missing. 

At the end of the day, I know a lot of my low moods and 'feeling bad' days are down to my depression/anxiety, so I know that things will always be getting better. 

I'm at a stage now that I feel like I'm finally feeling somewhat 'normal', in a sense that I can now leave the house on my own, go to the shop, go to meet-ups etc. All things I wouldn't even have thought about this time two years ago. But, the biggest issue for me is still work. After being out of work for these past two years, I'm now feeling really frustrated that this is my only problem that hasn't really been helped by the medication I have been taking. I would love to get back to work, but deep down, in the pits of my stomach I know that I would still have huge issues to get up and go, that's if I did manage to get through interviews etc first. 

I've been looking online recently and I feel sick doing it, but I'm hoping that one day a job will pop up and my head will finally shout loud enough to be heard over the beating of my heart. If I'm going to push myself to get through this, I want it to be for a job that I'm passionate about, something that I know I will enjoy doing. Which, if I'm completely honest, I haven't had for a very long time. All jobs I've applied for before have been because I felt like I had to. Money pressures and such like. Those pressures are still very much there, but now the understanding of my issues is there too, it seems a lot easier to focus on what's important. 

So, after that very long winded catch up on me, I now want to get myself back to feeling good. I've spent these past couple of weeks feeling really cruddy and I've just let it happen. This week I am bringing back Friday Fitness, a new diet (I've fit my highest weight :S ), and hopefully regular videos. 

Blogging and Youtube is something that I love with all my heart and if it bought in pennies, I would make it my job, but that's really a longterm goal. Not exactly something that can happen over night. So, I'm now going to throw myself back into it, stop rambling and get on with today's actual post!

Well done to you if you managed to get through that lot! 

Please excuse the grainy iPad photo, the Mr stole my camera this weekend and it needs charging. 

I chose to keep today's face light, only using Benefit's Fakeup in Light and Medium as my base. If you're having a good skin day, it's amazing. 

On my eyes, I'm wearing maybelline colour tattoo in 'Light in purple' and 'Turquoise forever' on my top lid, and MUA single shadow in Shade 10 smudged on my lower lash line. I'm wearing Benefit Bad Gal Lash mascara and 'Guipure' from my Sleek blush by 3 palette on my cheeks. 

On my lips is just The Body Shop lipgloss in watermelon. 

As you can probably see, my eyebrows are in a somewhat appalling state at the minute and you will see a post on them coming up within the next week. 

I hope you've all been really well!

Sam

xoxo